Lateee

My stomach is growling and it's 3:12 AM. It's been awhile since I wrote these late night posts. So summer has started. During the last couple weeks of school, everyone's all like I can't wait for the summer to come so I can go out and sleep in and stuff. I know I've said that too. Now that summer did come, all those going outs and sleeping ins aren't really working for me. Yes I do go out, and yes I do sleep in, but it's so repetitive it gets boring. Like I would wake up so early or I would wake up really late depending on what time I slept the night before. Then as for going out, we just basically go to the same places. I don't know what is it but I feel like I'm bored. I need some excitement in my life. I wanna do something different like go to other places. I really want to go to SIX FLAGS. I know I'm going with a couple of friends but I got to wait til they get out of summer school. But I don't mind going with other people first then go with my group of girls later on. I can't wait to get my tattoo this summer. I'm totally scared to do it but I'll still do it no matter what. No one and nothing can stop me from it. I have that gut wrenching feeling thinking of how it would feel, but I'm totally down for it. I don't know why I want to get one so badly though. I guess I like the fact that it makes me feel like such a rebel. Cuz I'm sure if my mom found out about it, I'd be dead meat.
SO things have been different lately. I'm sure if you read it, you'll know what I mean. I guess I just have to say when it was happening I didn't cherish it, but took it for granted. Now that it's gone, I want everything to be the way it used to be. When you were serious, I wasn't. And now I want to be serious, you're done. I should've known better from all these experiences and lessons I've learned, but nooo I was way too naive about it all. I am in total denial right now, it's not even funny. When will it be my time to say "I'm over and done for." I really need a reality check now.